On how bad our life is, we forget about that town in Syria, we forget about those kids in Parkland. We forget about 100 girls kidnapped from school in Nigeria, we forget, because it is becoming all too common. We choose to worry about little problems and let them become big problems! We forget about are pride, we let ourselves sink into the mentality of, well he did it and got away with it, so why do I have to be better? If I have to tell you why, you have already fallen into life’s trap game. I’ve played poor me for so long and it’s life’s fault or why did YOU do that, that I lost myself. Like a lot of us, I lost my way and I made things that weren’t okay, well okay! The mind is an amazing thing, we let it convince ourself that we can or can’t do something, but the reality is this. Eminem was right, “you can do anything you set your mind !” Plain and simple, nothing to be argued about there, excuses or extra work to figure it out? Because at this point with the state of the world, we bettter figure a way out now!
You come and go, you come and go lol, some of you will get this, some of you need to YouTube the song since that is what kids do these days. How many times do we have to call the Chameleon a liar? Did he really just use the words hate, did he really say that it was somebody else’s fault? You were the one who had the conversations with Comey you dummy, you were the one who didn’t know what the hell you were doing. Again, just like you, I didn’t think you had a chance in hell when I voted for you. How sad, I thought Hillary’s ignorance was worse than yours and now I just pray we make it four more years as I watch military planes and vehicles start to mobilize at a rapid rate at Fort Lewis near my home. Close your eyes, turn away, except this isn’t a remote and these aren’t those poor kids on T.V. late at night that you can change the channel on. This is the world and the life that we have created, this is our doing and nobody else’s. This is the worst case in human history of what you allow will continue and now what? Corporate greed, corrupt governments, bombs and violence everywhere, trying to make it so we are afraid to walk out the door. Why not? Fear forced us into creating the department of Homeland Security and I guess my question is this? Do you feel any safer? Does it bother you that instead of taking care of business, 46 is too busy tweeting and defending himself and his administration against something every other day? Politicians are shady, it is the nature of the beast, but have we ever witnessed anything like this in history? Suppose like I, you are tired of listening to all of it and seeing the Facebook prophets who bitch about it, but wont be about it. I’m pro this, but don’t take away my Starbucks! Hey Lavar Ball, we know what the little kid in Cambodia gets paid to make your sons shoes, so are you fucking kidding me with that price tag? Are overall greed as a world and making money are bottom line has led us to a point where we are on the edge, and tetter tottering on that mother fucker, know that! I know I am, about to lose two of the most important things to me. My mom is a 65-year-old diabetic and yesterday the paramedics thank God were barely able to bring her back from a 17 blood sugar. I am pretty sure you are supposed to be damn near dead under 20, and this has been the worst one by far. My 9-year-old black lab is starting to show the signs that he is shutting it down. The one who carried me, the one that was there for me no matter what the dumb shit was that I did that day and now, I can’t stop the process of life. The one guaranteed thing, death. So lets continue down this road, lets waste our time with letting it all go down like this, because I’m sure I am right and Heaven is guaranteed. I’m sure there are 72 virgins waiting on the other side and I am sure whether you believe in God like I do or not, this I believe to be true. The bible was interpreted by man, the same man who is destroying the world today with their power-hungry money-grubbing greed! And remember this one last thing! If you do believe in God like I, remember what they did to his son because they chose fear instead of understanding. Hmm, fear instead of understanding, were those Roman times or 2017……..
He was 20 years old, his name was Jimmy Kramer, he went camping over Memorial Day weekend to celebrate turning 20! Not even old enough to drink, but old enough to get run down because he was native! Gone, and if I am wrong about their being that God guy, that’s all he gets! For what? I saw the images as did you, of what happened when chemical bombs dropped on Syrian children. Saw the devastation of a coward bomber at a concert in England. Hate, fear and not wanting to understand each other, sound like end of days to you? They feared Jesus because they didn’t understand him if you believe like I do and it destroyed them! I’m not saying take the Bible literally, I’ll be the first to say I hate the judgementalness of religion, but if you believe, there is some truth to it! Now the guy in my White House turns to Twitter, Bombs and poking the stick every chance that he gets, because he just doesn’t get it. I wanted this chaos, I wanted change, I voted Trump, but fear fills me now. Fear in the words of Angela Merkel’s voice when she says you can’t trust us. Fear about Russia, fear about North Korea, fear of the assholes we put in power who are doing nothing to fix the problem with their idle threats! And yet nobody is paying attention to the real threat! Black, white, purple or pink, time is the real threat and the real enemy! Most likely 20 years or so from now, Trumps in the ground and I just wonder what his four years will leave us! One nation, under God, built out of war, the backs of black slaves and swindling the Indians! It sure is a great day to be alive and white….
Love over hate is what the kid on T.V. said. Whatever right? People say things like that all the time. Not necessarily when they are from a teenager who just lost his mom to senseless violence! Violence, Syria uses chemical gas attacks, we come back with the second biggest bomb in history. Forget talking about it, Russia will protect their asset, like we the people protect Israel! It used to be easy to drink and smoke all the shit I’ve done and the shit going on away. Sober scared the fuck out of me, until that one day I realized time didn’t give a fuck about me! I’ve wasted years and years and lost so many good things along the way to get too the misery of today! I’ve Trumped myself, opened up my mouth and wrote checks I knew that it couldn’t cash! But boy I’d sure tell you I would and yell at you if you questioned me, sound like anyone? At least I can admit it, instead of taking to Twitter to act like a little bitch about it! Speaking of bitching about it, that seems to be all we do! Tell me what your endless Facebook posts have done about it? I hate Trump, but I’m not willing to do anything about it! Then let’s march thru the streets destroying shit, which is exactly what your marching to oppose! Corporations destroying shit, please explain that too me and oh by the way you have something on your Tom’s! Oh and that Unicorn Frap in your hand, that’s fucking cute princess. Fuck Starbucks and that dickwad Schultz, ha, it didn’t auto correct dickwad! I live in the Pacific Northwest and there used to be this thing called the Seattle Sonics! See, at least I’m honest, I call out my biases! A kid seeing hope on the worst day of his life, love not hate! Hate is why we lose good men and women in our military! Hate is why gangs are killing each other at alarming numbers, beyond hate, greed! Greed and hate are what did in the world if you believe in Jesus as I do so be careful! Greed, the taste of power and the want for more and not understanding something took them all down before, it can take us down again! How about we try love over hate, instead of killing each other over religious beliefs and greed!
Wow, that one sure hits between the eyes as I have come to a crossroads. Last chance, last shot at any kind of fucking life at all and in slow motion, watching yourself piss it away one more time. Telling yourself you have to somehow stop it and caught up in the middle of all the lies and bullshit, it seems like there is no way out. Always is, just depends on how bad you want it and how bad you want to quit. I can tell you all about second chances and pissing them away, I can tell you all about cocaine addictions that should have killed me, drunken boozy car rides I don’t remember. The women who gave a fuck about me and I could give two fucks less, I could tell you a lot of things! I could tell you that time slips away at a pace that you can’t believe, I could tell you that people you care about move on because they’re tired of watching you destroy yourself. I could tell you all these things that I could play victim to, but who is the victim? Surely not me when I created it all, all this potential and yet nothing, that 50 cent line, “damn homie, in high school you was the man homie, what the fuck happened to you.” Plays over and over again in my head like a cruel joke reminding me that I had all the chances in the world to grab it and yet here I sit. Stale, getting older and for sure not wiser by the day, what a waste. Wow I heard someone say, what a waste, what he could of been. Ugly scene when you hear words like what could of been. It’s a little too late to say your sorry at this point, it’s a little too late to make excuses, been to hell an back, have the scars to prove it. Not proud of any of it, more disgusted truth be told, but decisions were made and things were done and said and you cant worry about that shit in the past anymore. It’s about moves to be made now, it’s about getting out of your own way, its about letting it go no matter how bad you wish you could change it. Some people die that way, holding on to something they just cant have or a situation that just didn’t work out. Out work whatever you are up against, believe that shit about being better than you were yesterday, if it comes out of your mouth, make sure it happens, life is a lot easier that way. It gets harder chasing your dreams in the wind when you are chasing your tail building it all on lies!
To chemical attacks over Syria? To the peace in the Middle East we were going to have after we got rid of Saddam and Bin Laden? To the state of the world today! The biggest ass clown in history that I voted for, controlling the most powerful nation! A testament to making America Great Again? Going to take whole lot more for that to happen then a catchy slogan! But apparently you can ride that catchy slogan and some sketchy email accounts all the way to the White House! Is that a testament to us, or had bad shot has really gotten? Two woman, Palin was a joke and Billary lost to a joke, “you didn’t realize it was going to be this hard?” At least Bush had an excuse to not have a clue, no President has had to deal with a 9/11! This clown pushing Russia and China, uh boom you idiot! Syria doesn’t scare me, I feel bad for those people, and let’s face this fact! North Korea knows better, we would turn him into Kim Jung Dead! Our biggest enemy at any level is us! I can’t, our mind defeats us first, they’re better than me. I’ll never be able to do this, letting our words get in the way and control are thoughts! How about a testament to being better, not having those moments where we slip and then try to justify it! Don’t lie, don’t slip up, and Lear to fly!
Not like the drunk begging for money, or the crackhead in the Wal-Mart with no teeth that thinks they are in Disneyland. No, rather lost your mind in the madness and the insanity of everything you have done. Learned nothing from your mistakes and still continue to make them and take others down with you. But God forbid they pull that shit on you, you would lose your damn mind. And now, you’re getting too old for this shit and the shit is about to hit the fan. Thought you were losing your shit before, you had no idea the shit storm that was coming. This time you may have just gone too far, this time your indecision may really cost you. You only get away for it so long, and let’s be honest, in your mind you never really get away with it. Trying to comprehend it all brings you to the moment when you realize you may have just gone mad and lost your fucking mind. It would be easier that way wouldn’t it? To look away from the children being bombed in Syria, to look away from the things we’ve done that disgust us about ourselves. I heard this Joseph Prince guy in passing on the television today say, “It is the past, leave it there, there is nothing you can do about it.” He is right, but acceptance I believe is a big religious term, and it is still hard to accept and come to terms with what you have done sometimes, that is one thing I am sure of. Still having a hard time with that hold on to hope, I will always hold on to my faith, it is how I was raised, but hope is fleeting. I guess when you have bowed down to it and let it look you in the eyes and run you over, hope would be fleeting. At some point, whether you have lost your mind or not, you have to look whatever it is that is in your way in the eyes and deal with it. I’ve come to find that most of the time, when you figure out what is holding you back and look it in the eyes, you will be in front of a mirror…….