When The Walls

Life is out of our control! That’s okay, it’s how we respond and what we do! It’s okay not to be okay, but some days,  the walls start closing in. Some things in life are out of our control, not all things, I should correct myself. Start taking care of now, the things that you can control. Because when the walls start closing in, when the walls start stumbling, crumbling down Mr. Mellencamp, it can be a dicey situation. They start telling you that it is over, you start listening this time. They put you on a timeline that I’m not even sure God could pull of with the state of the shit show I have put on for so many years I am embarrassed to mention it. Those walls start telling you that  what’s against you is better than you and you just keep doing the same damn thing proving those walls right. You find yourself getting mad and fighting about the same fucking things over and over again, the walls just laugh and close a little bit further in. Saying things like you are better than this and you are past this and making yourself believe anything you can to not admit that you’re not dealing with, but yet still dancing with the demons of your past. We all have one, we drove past it,  we used to live right past it, just past the store hang a right and just dance with your past long enough and the walls win. Watching the walls win too much lately, watching people die from drug overdoses, watching things taking over this world that don’t seem to be in are favor. Watching the walls closing in on us everyday and the  mother fucker in North Korea  is supposedly making more nukes and the dumbass in the White House is worried about Lebron? I hate the kneeling for the flag, my grandfather took a bullet for this country, but taking shots at a guy who seems to get that he’s fortunate to have all that money from basketball and is giving back?!? That’s what you are worried about? Its suffocating right now, the walls are not closing in, they have all but fucking closed and that’s a wrap. I was told today I didn’t matter, I was told today I wasn’t good enough, I had it shoved in my face and I had some of the most important things in the world to me taken away. Today is the day that the walls win. So the  only thing to do is burn this bitch to the ground and start over, walls were made to come down, and even if we lose a battle here or there, it will happen. Don’t lose sight of winning the war, because that wall that’s closing in that you are fighting. Let me tell you a little secret about it, that it doesn’t want you to know. You built it, therefore you are its worst enemy and you are the one who can bring that wall down, you and only you….

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My Letter To The President!

Forgive me sir, and yes I’m Christian and yes I voted for you. But don’t you think like the song says, “it’s too late, when we die, to admit we don’t see eye too eye? Weird, all I seem to hear from you is fear and hate, not saying the Bible’s perfect, it’s written and interpreted by man! And boy let me tell you about some of the shit our fellow man has done lately! But fear and hate is what strung Jesus up on a cross, and yet that is the route you have chosen to take! Kids are afraid to go too school! People are afraid to walk in a mall and go back to school shopping! While guns play some role in what’s going on, let’s stop blaming an object that can’t do it, itself! Wether accidental or intended, guns don’t just go off without some kind of human reaction! And now, my human reaction is simply this! We did this America, what are we going to do about it?

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The White Rhino In The Room

The one nobody wants to talk about, oh wait, that Rhino has survived millions of years I do believe. The one thing that it couldn’t survive you ask? The greed of the human race, anybody listening out there? Yeah, I’m talking too you with the phone and the Snapchat and the Facebook, that shit isn’t real. Does Jeff Bezos really need anymore money? He’s taken down Americas malls, and now he’s taking down Americas grocery stores, lets not forget about the books stores who he took down a long time ago. While He’s been busy at a rapid pace building his empire, I just wonder what He’s doing to our communities? I don’t think for a second that Kim Jung Crazy Pants is are biggest threat, that for sure is us. Look at the polar ice caps, look at the weather and the wildfires and things  we have never seen before in recorded  history. But we seem to be more concerned with a Russia probe that at this point doesn’t matter, he probably did it, he has been in office over a year now, let it the fuck go. It’s not about fixing the problems that we have as a world, it’s about how many times Trump went golfing, which porn star he banged and a corrupt leader leaving Peru probably loaded to take asylum somewhere. Funny how these people we elected, who are supposedly supposed to be looking out for us, seem to be not so trustworthy at all. I think at this point I would trust a car salesman, at least he is honest about it, lying is a big part of his job. How do you raise a kid today? I’m raising an 18 month old and I am terrified. Don’t degrade women, but grab them by the pussy and they dressed that way so they were asking for it. Fucking really? That’s what you are going to use to justify it? Would you be saying that kind sir if it was your daughter? Tell my daughter to go to school and look what happens there. Maybe its mental health, I don’t think assault rifles are completely necessary, I think bullying must end and people must stand up. I make excuses for nobody who takes cowardly actions, but I hope someway, somehow we figure out a way out of the darkness that we have been living in and back into the light. Seen my share of “Broken Halos” blares in the background as I write this. Seeing more than my share lately, seeing too many broken people. People who have quit, people who have been beaten and broken down one too many times. People who once had hope and now like that last male Rhino, hope seems all but dead. Kids who have given up and turned too guns, parents who aren’t parents and this is why we are in this mess. Don’t beat you kids, but spank their ass and teach them some discipline. Kids these days have no idea what consequences are until it is far too late. I guess unlike the Rhino, I hope it is not far too late for us…….

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What You Did! What You Were Going To Do! And Winnie The Fucking Pooh!

Sorry Winnie, through you completely under that bus, but let’s be honest, your name ends in Pooh. Apparently I wake up this morning to Mr. Lauer getting a little handsy. I’m sure just like the shoplifting Shanghai sweeties he saved, he will jump right in and say grabbing them by the pussy is okay. Okay, so let me get this straight, hold the phone Matt, bigger problem. That Korean missile thing that just happened and did the monkey in the suit really just retweet a hate group? Wtf is going on man, why no start burning crosses on the white house lawn? That one still blows my mind, the Klan is for God, but burns crosses! We the people are at a crossroads, it’s no matter now what we did to get here. Nobody cares what you were going to do about it, anybody can run their mouth. So I guess we are left with Winnie the fucking pooh. The hundred acre wood sure sounds a whole lot better than this shit show right now doesn’t it? It’s every other man in power, its Trump getting worse by the day, its North Korea, its FEAR, we have simply let fear win. They made us create a department of Homeland Security out of fear and what I fear now is that we have missed the point. We are more worried about what the dumbass in the White House will tweet next then seeing all that is going down around us. We are so worried about what we did, that we have chosen to live in the shadows and be small and let it all go down like this. We go  down with it you know that  right? This doesn’t end well unless we the people end it now. You don’t have to be American like me, I’m sure things are worse in other nations, I’m not and idiot. But we as a world have to be better and we the people of these divided states of America have to be the first change. We have to decide o be better, we can’t continue to worry about what happened or what we did or didn’t do, that is a mind game that will trap you for life I promise you that. So it really comes down to  we only have two things left. Winnie the fucking pooh and what the fuck are we going to do? Yeah, that language thing I said I was going to work on seems to be going pretty well……

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Somewhere In The Middle Of These Twisted Apologies!

Twisted apologies that you use to justify it, they never have the answers you need behind them. They simply have become the same day over and over again, shits like groundhog day, no way out. No wonder why at this point, how can it change when you don’t shut the voices in your head out and keep doing the same thing over and over again? Surprised you ask? Blown away? Nope, just the same thing over and over again and now it is starting to take what I care about around me down with it. You would think action, you would think do something about it stupid wouldn’t you? You would think at some point you would get tired of these twisted apologies in your head. Spinning tales to survive and get to the next day, turns out the next day in this bullshit life I have created is worse than the day before. It can get better, or it can get worse, day one  or one day, you decide! All kinds of catchy little slogans out there to remind us that we can do better, but if you look around at the shape the world is in, we have clearly chosen no to do better. We have clearly chosen greed  and allowed men to do what they want with women. We  have clearly chosen to look the other way while ISIS rapes women and sells people into slavery in the Middle East. We have clearly chosen to let hate in and we have clearly chosen to turn are back on all of it. If they don’t have to be better, why do I have to be better?See, we got caught up in the results, instead of the effort. I coach high school sports and I tell all my athlete’s, if you think there isn’t somebody else out there trying to get better, you’ve missed the point. Greatness is made in dimly lit gyms at 5 in the morning, greatness is made when you realize somebody out there wants it as much as you do. But nobody wants to put in the work anymore, everybody just wants it handed to them and all they care about is the results in the end and in the end that will be are downfall. In all these twisted apologies in my head I realize we the people are our own worst enemy. We the people have caused this and we the people now have cause to stop this.

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Shout Out To God! We The People Will See you soon!

You were afraid of Mansions music, turns out Harvey and Kevin turned out to be a little Spacey! American beauty huh, let’s just be honest you scumbag! You came clean because you were about to get caught, funny how that works across the board! Anybody want to go to church or maybe catch an Aldean concert? I’ve got amazing floor seats! Supposed to be sensitive and sympathetic and I promise you I am! But sensitive and sympathetic and worrying about people’s feelings is what got us here! He’s connected, she wanted it, I can go on and on, but this is where we live, this is what we created! Not in our heads anymore, not able to turn a blind eye to it, wonder how it went on for so many years. Wait, you mean Harvey and Kevin kept making people a lot of money so it was okay? Gotcha, makes sense to me now. How Jerry Sandusky could go on for decades abusing people at  a school and plenty knew, but as long as the checks kept coming in and Joe Paterno kept winning everybody looked away. Keep looking away, I’d like to say that I’m sorry I let you down, but we are past the edge. Past the point, about ready to make it a moot point, I don’t want to shut the voices in my head out anymore. They are the only thing that makes sense anymore. Instead of finding a solution all we are doing is passing the buck and anymore I just can’t. It’s a terrorist and people lose their mind. Then it’s a white guy in a church, then its this about race and that about race and when do we the people realize we have a problem. It’s not a black, white, brown or whatever color you are problem, its OUR problem and we the people are charged with finding a better way, because the clowns running the show sure aren’t.  One clown is pushing a nuclear showdown with North Korea while he is all buddy, buddy behind the scenes with Mr. Putin. My last names not Ball, and my daddy isn’t famous, so if I steal some Louis’s from China are you going to help me sir. I’m guessing that you are too busy hanging out with Roy Moore, grabbing them by the pussy. Hey, its a great gig if you can get it. Dodge your military service, get daddy to bail you out with a small million dollar loan, run your business’s into the ground and file bankruptcy and then tell everyone what a great businessman you are. Again, there are far worse across the world then the mickey mouse moron we have in office, but at what point we the people? Because we the people have but two choices left. Continue and watch what happens, maybe a meeting with that big guy in the sky sooner than we thought if you believe in that kind of thing.  Or we stand up and fight! We the people have the power, we the people have the power to do something about it. We the people can stand up like Mr. King and Mr. Lincoln, when they saw something wrong. We need leaders with that kind of courage, we need people with heart and guts to stand up. They knew it wasn’t going to be popular, they knew that  it could cost them everything and it did, but they did it anyway. We the people? Or we the puppets, because WE have a choice to make….

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What Was Supposed To Be

It was going to be like this! I was going to do this or I was going to be with that person. I was going to make that happen and mom was going to see those grandkids from her only child before she dies. I had all that time to go golfing with gramps, his mom lived to 104! But cancer decides different for him at 84! It was supposed to be different as I count down the hours not years now to forty! God forgive me for my sins and for what I did! I knew better and now all the voices in my mind say over and over again it was supposed to be. You were supposed to be better, people were counting on you and now your just wasting your time. Counting down the days in your mind, demons 1, you 0! I keep coming back to I! Unlike my government, nobody to blame, conclusive evidence that I am the perpetrator of this shit show and what a show! And what I fear now you ask? Will I get a chance to fix any of it! I hear things like Harvey, Irma and Jose, names that are changing the landscape! Storms of a magnitude that we have never seen before! Everywhere seems to be on fire and now the biggest earthquake in a century in Mexico, anybody else going wtf? United States heroin deaths jump 533% since 2003, yeah you read that right! Equifax selling off stock before revealing somebody is now probably selling your information! Guess what was supposed to be is a moot point, what we do about it now is the point! Hate lives, hate is winning, North Korea hates us and we hate them! Whites hate blacks, blacks hate whites and both are marching, blacks are marching against hate! Everybody seems to hate the cops, Michael Bennett of my Seahawks could be lying? Could we all be lying to ourselves that this is okay? Or have we turned a blind eye for so long and made it okay? I guess what’s supposed to be, will be…..

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