What Was Supposed To Be

It was going to be like this! I was going to do this or I was going to be with that person. I was going to make that happen and mom was going to see those grandkids from her only child before she dies. I had all that time to go golfing with gramps, his mom lived to 104! But cancer decides different for him at 84! It was supposed to be different as I count down the hours not years now to forty! God forgive me for my sins and for what I did! I knew better and now all the voices in my mind say over and over again it was supposed to be. You were supposed to be better, people were counting on you and now your just wasting your time. Counting down the days in your mind, demons 1, you 0! I keep coming back to I! Unlike my government, nobody to blame, conclusive evidence that I am the perpetrator of this shit show and what a show! And what I fear now you ask? Will I get a chance to fix any of it! I hear things like Harvey, Irma and Jose, names that are changing the landscape! Storms of a magnitude that we have never seen before! Everywhere seems to be on fire and now the biggest earthquake in a century in Mexico, anybody else going wtf? United States heroin deaths jump 533% since 2003, yeah you read that right! Equifax selling off stock before revealing somebody is now probably selling your information! Guess what was supposed to be is a moot point, what we do about it now is the point! Hate lives, hate is winning, North Korea hates us and we hate them! Whites hate blacks, blacks hate whites and both are marching, blacks are marching against hate! Everybody seems to hate the cops, Michael Bennett of my Seahawks could be lying? Could we all be lying to ourselves that this is okay? Or have we turned a blind eye for so long and made it okay? I guess what’s supposed to be, will be…..


“It’s The End Of The World As We Know It”

Sorry Michael Stipe, I don’t feel fine and I doubt you do! Listen to the song, maybe a little Billy Joel “we didn’t start the fire”! Oh wait, my bad, we kind of did! Well boy, the mother fucker sure got hot in a hurry didn’t it Drake! Zero too a hundred jigga real quick as the song would go! Harvey, followed by Irma, followed by white supremacists, followed by half the country on fire and sure is hard to feel fine about it all! I don’t mean to go all God and end of days, but is anybody else going wtf? Things are happening right now that have never happened in history, there is not much left of Houston and my question is what will be left of Miami? What will be left of any of us if dumb and dumber don’t stop playing nuclear chicken? It’s not just what we do from here on out, it’s what we’ve done…..



How many likes has become more important than basic humanity. While you were liking and loving some picture of your friend doing something stupid, that dude over in North Korea started fucking with the leader of the free world. What the hell does that mean anyway? I’m all for supporting the men who died for this country and my grandfather took  a bullet for  this country, but shit is getting out of hand. But we are more worried about our like count from people we haven’t seen in twenty years or for that matter never met in real life. Meanwhile, back over here in the real world, two clowns are playing a nuclear name calling game. I don’t care who  has to have the bigger dick, he’s Asian, so probably the Donald, yep, going to hell for that. Sorry Asian people, I have Asian friends, or I have black friends,  what every white person says after they’ve said something dumb. Got a little off track there, my bad. My point was, while you are worried about a like from Derrick in your hometown who you’ve never met,  names  probably Larry and it gets worse from there. These to clowns are on the verge of sending us to the point of no return! What if I am wrong about this God guy and there is no Heaven and this is all we get? I’d prefer that it wasn’t at three weeks before forty with a whole shit storm left to fix. I’d prefer to go out  making the ones I should have made proud of me a long time ago, proud of me for once. I’d like to go out swinging, wouldn’t you? Not because two dudes let their egos get in the way and started arming nukes. Don’t get me wrong, North Korea is poking the stick, we all can see that, but there has to be a better way. We have to be better, we let hate in and look at what just happened. I was raised  a certain way and it wasn’t in favor of gay people, but I grew up, I may never be at a gay pride parade, but lets live our lives and let God do the judging if there is any judging to be done. Fear is what took down the Romans who took down Jesus, fear of what they didn’t know. So instead of understanding they killed him and then that whole thing about the stone and what not, yeah whoops. Fear will end us, fear of color, fear of police, fear of nukes, fear of  drinking your water, FEAR! So, yeah a lot went on while you were busy Facebooking…….