Those days when you didn’t fear a call from your parents number. Back then your mother wasn’t 65 and the diabetes wasn’t winning! Back when you were sure you had time, back when you’d never lose those people you thought would always be there. Back when you were quick with the slick answers and they managed to get you by. Back when you didn’t have to care, because as I said before, you had time! Right up until the clock struck midnight and the shoe just didn’t quite fit right Cinderella. The point where the voices in your head are the loudest thing, a constant reminder of what you’ve done! Where the days get shorter and the nights so long they never seem to go too bed. And your just left lying there with these voices in your head playing out what you could have done. Everyone says you can’t worry about the would of, should of and could of. I kind of think whoever they are that their liars, because these days the shoulda, woulda and coulda are all that run through my head! I’d like to say Trump and the state of the world has got me scared out of my mind! But the things I’ve done and the things I’ve become capable of are all that haunts my mind now. The only sure bet, the only guaranteed to beat the spread winner in this life is time. Time my friends, always wins. I long for those good old days where I thought time didn’t matter and this ride we call life would never end! That was before people were getting gunned down in malls, churches and concerts! That was before we turned things back 100 years and let hate and fear win and march in the streets! That was before, when there really were heroes! Not overpaid spoiled athletes whining about it! Not idiot owners making it worse because they called them inmates! Back when people cared and opened doors for ladies and senior citizens! I keep trying to find some good left, I see it in the eyes of the high school kids I coach, that hope, that fire I used to have. When did we let it burn out? When did we somehow make what’s going on okay in our heads? I guess the better question is, what are we going to do to stop it! Because sitting here longing for those good old days is a catchy Macklemore tune, but time marches on!!!
It’s a line in one of my favorite artists songs, but my question is this? When do we draw the line? When do we say enough is enough? When its 100 people shot dead? When it’s a state, not the ugly stepdaughter Puerto Rico? Because like it or not, that is what these great Divided States of America have done. We have turned are back on our people, we have a successful white retired man killing at least 58 people and we have people saying it’s a country concert so it’s a bunch of white people, I bet its retaliation. In the middle of all this, I just have one question? I think we might be missing it on every level, don’t you? I posted this on Facebook today, I’d say pray for Vegas, but even a lifelong Christian like me is having problems with that. I’d say worst shooting in U.S. history, but the way we are going, I fear a worse one is coming next week. I don’t get how thirty years ago when I was ten, nothing like this happened. I don’t want to hear mental illness or ISIS , I want to know when human beings stopped caring about human beings? Letting people die in Puerto Rico, 50 plus dead at a concert, I could go an on an on. I guess my fear is, if we continue to let this go on an on, what will be left of us when hate and fear finally wins! We created homeland security out of fear. We judge people out of fear, because we choose to be afraid of their beliefs instead of understanding. FEAR will end us, fear is what ills the world today. Fear lets religious people think it is okay to judge, fear was just instilled again, want to go too an open air concert tomorrow anybody? Bet you will think twice about it now. Chaos, fear, racism, judging, the weather and the earthquakes and believe in him or not like I do, the big man in the sky might just be coming! Hell on earth in may ways is upon us, try being in certain parts of Mexico right now, try being stranded on Puerto Rico, try having a guy in the White House who doesn’t seem to give a fuck. I mean, it’s not our problem right? Wait, your telling me that Puerto Rico is a U.S. territory?!? I’ll leave you with this, close to 60 people’s families were liking and watching their updates and pictures from the Jason Aldean concert less than 24 hours ago. Now, all those pictures and updates are all they have left, because their loved one liked Jason Aldean. Black people shouldn’t get killed for no reason, nobody should get killed for no reason, hate shouldn’t march in the streets. I pledge allegiance, to the flag of The Divided States Of America, to the republic, for which I have no idea what it stands for anymore, ONE nation, under God, for liberty and justice for ALL!!!!!!!!!! We can do better America……
Faggot, nigger, terrorist, loser, drugie, now we have a show about it, “Snap Decision.” You make decisions about people based solely on their looks! Looks like we may have missed a few things! How long will we let hate win? How long will we look the other way? How were United States colleges thinking about hosting people who promote hate? I’ll go back to what my high school marketing teacher told me, still holds true today. Any publicity is good publicity! Sad but true, shock and awe, hate boils to the top, any good is buried in the last thirty seconds of the newscast let’s just be honest folks and we created this. We created this with are could give a fuck attitude, “what we let be, will be.” Those moments when it starts getting harder and harder to look in the mirror. The time you wasted has collided with record wildfires and record hurricanes and record murder rates and people marching for hate in the streets and a President kind of brushing it off! What the fuck happened to us here America? Not saying other countries aren’t bad, that is for sure, but I thought we were supposed to be better than that. Hate 1, love 0 and as I said, it sure seems like these days hate is winning a lot more. Feels like a lot of things that shouldn’t be winning are winning, I know that goes with me and my demons for sure. I know better, it has caught up with me and will catch up with me again, but outrunning demons that have wings sometimes doesn’t work so well. Cant blame anybody when you know better in the first place and do it anyway. Its like when you are a kid and they tell you not to do it and of course you have to just find out how stupid it is yourself. “Ask forgiveness before I ask permission”, love that line in Brantley Gilberts new song. Well, time to wrap this one up, Hate 1, Us 0 and where we go and who wins next is up to US……..
Facebook stalking and holding on for dear life that there is something left. Something left leads to seven hours of drinking and screaming and yelling and running before the cops show up. Why do we always fuck with a past that is bad for us? We know better, or so we say we do. I guess we say a lot of things, we do a lot of things and WE write our own stories! We do our own deeds and we suffer or sometimes others suffer the consequences for our choices. The last 18 years have gone by in a blur of bad choices, addiction and things lost that almost broke me. Now, I don’t even know if there is enough of me left too break. Less sure now as I approach 40 of what I want then I have ever been in my life. Confused about how I could let it all pass by as if I could give a fuck less like some asshole bleached affliction asshole! These demons we let get into our bloodstream make us or destroy us. Do you dance with them? Or do they dance on the ashes that have become what is left of our lives. This is how it ends, Facebook stalking hoping for miracles, sitting on your ass social media wasted just waiting for the other shoe to drop. What if? What if you made the move instead of having one made against you. You find out some of the most solid people you know are going through it just like you. The guy with the doctorate who is without a doubt one of the best people you know falling apart in front of you. Choices, thought he wanted out of a relationship so he made a move he now regrets at thirty. Tricky thing is trying to go back, as I said see that drunken running from the cops mess Monday night I was talking about! The rich friend who is spending every dime to look that way. The friend who posts, “who wouldn’t want to go to the beach after work!” Then privately texts, “I’m miserable, I have nobody and he moved me to California to isolate me!” Live it, try to love it, try not to waste 18 years as you’ll learn you 65-year old diabetic mother won’t age well. The dog you used to love walking who carried you through some of the worst times will start to shut it down. You’ll grow up, the ones at 10 won’t be the ones at 20! The ones at 20 won’t be the ones at 40, you’ll be hurt by and lose some people you never thought you would and sometimes you’ll just grow or move apart! Life’s too short for Facebook stalking and bleached assholes, speaking of bleached assholes, how you doing these days Donald? Continue reading
Love over hate is what the kid on T.V. said. Whatever right? People say things like that all the time. Not necessarily when they are from a teenager who just lost his mom to senseless violence! Violence, Syria uses chemical gas attacks, we come back with the second biggest bomb in history. Forget talking about it, Russia will protect their asset, like we the people protect Israel! It used to be easy to drink and smoke all the shit I’ve done and the shit going on away. Sober scared the fuck out of me, until that one day I realized time didn’t give a fuck about me! I’ve wasted years and years and lost so many good things along the way to get too the misery of today! I’ve Trumped myself, opened up my mouth and wrote checks I knew that it couldn’t cash! But boy I’d sure tell you I would and yell at you if you questioned me, sound like anyone? At least I can admit it, instead of taking to Twitter to act like a little bitch about it! Speaking of bitching about it, that seems to be all we do! Tell me what your endless Facebook posts have done about it? I hate Trump, but I’m not willing to do anything about it! Then let’s march thru the streets destroying shit, which is exactly what your marching to oppose! Corporations destroying shit, please explain that too me and oh by the way you have something on your Tom’s! Oh and that Unicorn Frap in your hand, that’s fucking cute princess. Fuck Starbucks and that dickwad Schultz, ha, it didn’t auto correct dickwad! I live in the Pacific Northwest and there used to be this thing called the Seattle Sonics! See, at least I’m honest, I call out my biases! A kid seeing hope on the worst day of his life, love not hate! Hate is why we lose good men and women in our military! Hate is why gangs are killing each other at alarming numbers, beyond hate, greed! Greed and hate are what did in the world if you believe in Jesus as I do so be careful! Greed, the taste of power and the want for more and not understanding something took them all down before, it can take us down again! How about we try love over hate, instead of killing each other over religious beliefs and greed!