Sorry Winnie, through you completely under that bus, but let’s be honest, your name ends in Pooh. Apparently I wake up this morning to Mr. Lauer getting a little handsy. I’m sure just like the shoplifting Shanghai sweeties he saved, he will jump right in and say grabbing them by the pussy is okay. Okay, so let me get this straight, hold the phone Matt, bigger problem. That Korean missile thing that just happened and did the monkey in the suit really just retweet a hate group? Wtf is going on man, why no start burning crosses on the white house lawn? That one still blows my mind, the Klan is for God, but burns crosses! We the people are at a crossroads, it’s no matter now what we did to get here. Nobody cares what you were going to do about it, anybody can run their mouth. So I guess we are left with Winnie the fucking pooh. The hundred acre wood sure sounds a whole lot better than this shit show right now doesn’t it? It’s every other man in power, its Trump getting worse by the day, its North Korea, its FEAR, we have simply let fear win. They made us create a department of Homeland Security out of fear and what I fear now is that we have missed the point. We are more worried about what the dumbass in the White House will tweet next then seeing all that is going down around us. We are so worried about what we did, that we have chosen to live in the shadows and be small and let it all go down like this. We go down with it you know that right? This doesn’t end well unless we the people end it now. You don’t have to be American like me, I’m sure things are worse in other nations, I’m not and idiot. But we as a world have to be better and we the people of these divided states of America have to be the first change. We have to decide o be better, we can’t continue to worry about what happened or what we did or didn’t do, that is a mind game that will trap you for life I promise you that. So it really comes down to we only have two things left. Winnie the fucking pooh and what the fuck are we going to do? Yeah, that language thing I said I was going to work on seems to be going pretty well……
Who wins? What you are afraid of or you? Funny, what you are afraid of is failure and to this point all you have done is be a disappointment. Failure couldn’t be any worse than living another day this way. That’s the problem though, you are afraid of failure. Stay here and you aren’t exposed, take on your fear and who knows. That line that I believe is from Nelson Mandela that Samuel L. Jackson says in Coach Carter resonates with me now. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. You playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Some powerful shit right there, I have to get better with my language, coming to find that I have to get better with a lot of things. This I have decided for certain though. No longer will it continue like this, “what I allow will continue.” What I don’t allow can’t continue, fears are just this as I read somewhere once. “False Evidence Appearing Real,” True story, we are defeated by what might happen in our head, far before life ever beats us. Too many times we let what might happen keep us from what could happen. Quit living your life worrying about what might happen and could happen and just fucking make it happen. Life’s too short, what if I am wrong and there is no God and there is no Heaven? That means only two things are certain in this life, time marches on and you get a box at the end. Do you want to spend your days in fear of what might of happened, so you can talk about what you could have done? Damn, this jackass sure sounds a whole lot like me……
Of these divided states of America. Too the republic of insanity, for which it would appear our country stands. One nation, surely not under God anymore, I believe it ends indivisible FOR LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL. That probably means you shouldn’t worry about spoiled brats in China who chose to steal, let them figure it out. That probably means that you can’t back Mr. Moore and then take shots at somebody else doing the same thing because they are democrat. Oh Mr. President, we the people ae getting sick of it, we the people knew better and some of us like me lost our mind and even voted for you. Yeah, its gotten that bad, that I thought it was okay to vote for a puppet and his V.P. who thinks you can shock the gay out of people. Raised Christian, wont be at a gay pride parade anytime soon, but ill let God do the judging if it’s so bad thanks. And I’m pretty sure those prisoners in Guantanamo Bay were getting treated better than that, lets shock the gay out of them. Whats next, lets shock the criminal out of them, lets shock the attitude out of them, hell why don’t we just see if we can shock the black right out of them. Shocked by Trump, go to North Korea and tell me about what its like to live there. I get it, We the people are supposed to be better, but are we? Starting to see the ugly aren’t we America? Got a daughter? Want to send her to Hollywood? Men think it’s there right to do whatever they want with women because they have some power, wealth or fame. Don’t have to believe in God like me and I’m no fool, the good book was written by man. But back in the day, power and wealth led to fear and what happened to all the ones who were holier than though watching the nails being driven into a human body? What happens to us is my main question if we continue like this? Fighting, killing each other over differences and turning a blind eye like it isn’t happening is what we have gotten right for thousands of years.
Twisted apologies that you use to justify it, they never have the answers you need behind them. They simply have become the same day over and over again, shits like groundhog day, no way out. No wonder why at this point, how can it change when you don’t shut the voices in your head out and keep doing the same thing over and over again? Surprised you ask? Blown away? Nope, just the same thing over and over again and now it is starting to take what I care about around me down with it. You would think action, you would think do something about it stupid wouldn’t you? You would think at some point you would get tired of these twisted apologies in your head. Spinning tales to survive and get to the next day, turns out the next day in this bullshit life I have created is worse than the day before. It can get better, or it can get worse, day one or one day, you decide! All kinds of catchy little slogans out there to remind us that we can do better, but if you look around at the shape the world is in, we have clearly chosen no to do better. We have clearly chosen greed and allowed men to do what they want with women. We have clearly chosen to look the other way while ISIS rapes women and sells people into slavery in the Middle East. We have clearly chosen to let hate in and we have clearly chosen to turn are back on all of it. If they don’t have to be better, why do I have to be better?See, we got caught up in the results, instead of the effort. I coach high school sports and I tell all my athlete’s, if you think there isn’t somebody else out there trying to get better, you’ve missed the point. Greatness is made in dimly lit gyms at 5 in the morning, greatness is made when you realize somebody out there wants it as much as you do. But nobody wants to put in the work anymore, everybody just wants it handed to them and all they care about is the results in the end and in the end that will be are downfall. In all these twisted apologies in my head I realize we the people are our own worst enemy. We the people have caused this and we the people now have cause to stop this.
You were afraid of Mansions music, turns out Harvey and Kevin turned out to be a little Spacey! American beauty huh, let’s just be honest you scumbag! You came clean because you were about to get caught, funny how that works across the board! Anybody want to go to church or maybe catch an Aldean concert? I’ve got amazing floor seats! Supposed to be sensitive and sympathetic and I promise you I am! But sensitive and sympathetic and worrying about people’s feelings is what got us here! He’s connected, she wanted it, I can go on and on, but this is where we live, this is what we created! Not in our heads anymore, not able to turn a blind eye to it, wonder how it went on for so many years. Wait, you mean Harvey and Kevin kept making people a lot of money so it was okay? Gotcha, makes sense to me now. How Jerry Sandusky could go on for decades abusing people at a school and plenty knew, but as long as the checks kept coming in and Joe Paterno kept winning everybody looked away. Keep looking away, I’d like to say that I’m sorry I let you down, but we are past the edge. Past the point, about ready to make it a moot point, I don’t want to shut the voices in my head out anymore. They are the only thing that makes sense anymore. Instead of finding a solution all we are doing is passing the buck and anymore I just can’t. It’s a terrorist and people lose their mind. Then it’s a white guy in a church, then its this about race and that about race and when do we the people realize we have a problem. It’s not a black, white, brown or whatever color you are problem, its OUR problem and we the people are charged with finding a better way, because the clowns running the show sure aren’t. One clown is pushing a nuclear showdown with North Korea while he is all buddy, buddy behind the scenes with Mr. Putin. My last names not Ball, and my daddy isn’t famous, so if I steal some Louis’s from China are you going to help me sir. I’m guessing that you are too busy hanging out with Roy Moore, grabbing them by the pussy. Hey, its a great gig if you can get it. Dodge your military service, get daddy to bail you out with a small million dollar loan, run your business’s into the ground and file bankruptcy and then tell everyone what a great businessman you are. Again, there are far worse across the world then the mickey mouse moron we have in office, but at what point we the people? Because we the people have but two choices left. Continue and watch what happens, maybe a meeting with that big guy in the sky sooner than we thought if you believe in that kind of thing. Or we stand up and fight! We the people have the power, we the people have the power to do something about it. We the people can stand up like Mr. King and Mr. Lincoln, when they saw something wrong. We need leaders with that kind of courage, we need people with heart and guts to stand up. They knew it wasn’t going to be popular, they knew that it could cost them everything and it did, but they did it anyway. We the people? Or we the puppets, because WE have a choice to make….
Those days when you didn’t fear a call from your parents number. Back then your mother wasn’t 65 and the diabetes wasn’t winning! Back when you were sure you had time, back when you’d never lose those people you thought would always be there. Back when you were quick with the slick answers and they managed to get you by. Back when you didn’t have to care, because as I said before, you had time! Right up until the clock struck midnight and the shoe just didn’t quite fit right Cinderella. The point where the voices in your head are the loudest thing, a constant reminder of what you’ve done! Where the days get shorter and the nights so long they never seem to go too bed. And your just left lying there with these voices in your head playing out what you could have done. Everyone says you can’t worry about the would of, should of and could of. I kind of think whoever they are that their liars, because these days the shoulda, woulda and coulda are all that run through my head! I’d like to say Trump and the state of the world has got me scared out of my mind! But the things I’ve done and the things I’ve become capable of are all that haunts my mind now. The only sure bet, the only guaranteed to beat the spread winner in this life is time. Time my friends, always wins. I long for those good old days where I thought time didn’t matter and this ride we call life would never end! That was before people were getting gunned down in malls, churches and concerts! That was before we turned things back 100 years and let hate and fear win and march in the streets! That was before, when there really were heroes! Not overpaid spoiled athletes whining about it! Not idiot owners making it worse because they called them inmates! Back when people cared and opened doors for ladies and senior citizens! I keep trying to find some good left, I see it in the eyes of the high school kids I coach, that hope, that fire I used to have. When did we let it burn out? When did we somehow make what’s going on okay in our heads? I guess the better question is, what are we going to do to stop it! Because sitting here longing for those good old days is a catchy Macklemore tune, but time marches on!!!
In a week or two, I would have been ready! And while Diamond Rio is talking about a love lost, I’m talking about a life lost! Story of my life, in a week or two, it’s going to happen, I promise it’s goimg to be different and it’s become the same old thing! Tough to overhear a conversation of your father giving up on you! Not that he wanted to, but what do you do with a forty-year old who refuses to figure it out? Sounds like the world we live in right about now if you ask me, everyone has given up! Schools getting shot up, concerts, hate at an all time high, and while I may believe in God, we have to do something about saving ourselves! The ones doing all the bad shit want us to live in fear, scared to walk out the door in the morning! They want you looking over your shoulder, second guessing everything trapped in our own minds! I’ve come to a conclusion, we all have demons, we all have made mistakes! We all have those fans who are fake as hell to are face, just sitting there waiting for us to fall flat an prove them right again! There is a line in a Doug Stone song, that I’m from here on out going to live my life by! “I think I’d rather die and go to hell and face the devil!” I think I’d rather die and go to hell and face the devil, then to lie here and accept this! Accept that I’m a failure and that’s just the way it’s always going to be! That the country isn’t being overrun by heroin, that people aren’t dying at alarming rates! Sit by and accept that rape and sexual assault is okay and accepted because somebody has money or power! I’m case you were wondering, money and power are why we are in this mess that we’re in, in the first place! The ones who are supposed to care just say whatever they can to save face! Like we are supposed to accept it and it’s a total disgrace! “It’s like were on the edge right now, I’m sorry that I let you down!” Who am I kidding, sounds good right? Probably just easier to keep putting off today what I can do tomorrow, no sorrow for me, sorry that I let you down!