That Moment You Realize, It’s To Late!

Everybody has that moment, that do or die, it’s going to break you or your going to break it. That moment, where you look in the mirror and decide, I’m defeated, or I’m just getting started. Everybody has that moment where they realize it’s too late, and in that moment you ask? In that moment I found myself, in that moment I found strength I didn’t know I had, in that moment, I kicked back. That moment I realized that I didn’t have to lie down anymore, that moment I realized I created this, Not an immigrant, not a terrorist, not a gay dude, not anybody, but the mother fucker looking in the mirror. Shit’s bad, not sure if shit in my life has ever been this bad, but unlike everybody else these days especially the President, I’m not pointing any fingers, I’d have sixteen pointing back. Victim is easy, Victor takes a  whole hell of a lot of work. It takes the guts to keep fighting when they are telling you to give up. It takes the guts to keep swinging when you yourself feel like you are at the end of your rope. It doesn’t take courage, it doesn’t take guts or fight, it takes on thing and I realized it in that moment I had today. It takes heart, a whole hell of a lot of heart, some have it, and some will make excuses. Come at me, take your best fucking shot, my mom is losing her battle at 64 with diabetes, she is the most important thing to me. My dog, my kid, my other rock, just turned 8 and is fading even faster and I fear it is cancer. Flat broke, trying to bullshit my way from day-to-day and stay the fuck afloat, no clue whats next. But this hasn’t broke me, whatever comes next wont break me either. See it is like this, yeah the moment may have told me that it was too late, but my heart said, fuck you. My heart said you’re gonna have to bring more than that, because at the end of the day, I will still be here, when the smoke clears, ill still be on these two feet, standing here and you’ll still have to deal with me. No easy way out this time, know this, if its worth it, then it is worth it, like they say, everybody can’t do it or they would, and when you set out to change the world one post at a time you are going to hear a lot of things. Loser, boy he sure had a lot of potential, fuck you, still do. And loser huh, what exactly makes you so special? Like I tell the high school kids I coach, they’re not better than you, you make them better than you in your head. Step on the court and it is your court, winners step on the floor and know they can’t be beat, confidence, not cocky, the moment came, it’s too late, I should be finished, everybody has given up or said as much. Everybody except one person……..


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