I watched a movie last night, not by choice, but boy am I glad she made me watch it. “Invictus” maybe the best movie I’ve ever saw Morgan Freeman in. It taught me that we can all do what they expect us to do, but what happens when they don’t see it coming? What happens after twenty seven years when you come out of prison forgiving those who put you there for being black? They expected him to disband the spring box white rugby team, we’re taught to take revenge any chance we get. See how far you get in life with that. There will always be someone who wronged you, always something to get mad about! But when you don’t? Well, he changes the world with that philosophy, anger breeds anger and hate breeds hate and he refused to let hate in. If there was ever a man to walk the Earth who had the right to have hate in his heart, it was that man, yet none. People lost their minds when he did what he did, people usually do when you do the right thing! Hold doors, treat your daughters mother right, help someone if you can, hell what I’m trying to say is sometimes doing the right thing will feel like the wrong thing. People will look at you funny, even take shots and question you, but see whose standing with you taking those shots because they’ll still be standing with you when the smoke clears! There just aren’t enough people doing the right thing anymore, so try it, it shocks the shit out of people! And remember Mr. Mandela’s rallying cry at Robbin Island! “If the winds of change blow are way tomorrow, are we ready?” Don’t give up, he had twenty seven years taken away from him and changed the world,. No matter how bad it looks or how much time you have wasted, believe in yourself and believe you can change the world too!
Spring training, V-day, her in the stands when you win a state championship this year, or nothing. It all came down to all or nothing with one little ding of the phone this morning, danger Will Robinson! Make it happen now, you can, open it up and play a little show and tell this time and more of the show. It ends here if this is really the time you decide that you give a shit for once in your life. If you decide this isn’t how it’s going to end, it’s easy. You’re the only one who keeps getting in your own way and you better get out of it. You better stop getting mad about small shit you created and you better be concerned with that ding you heard this morning and permanently doing something about it. Before what you want becomes permanently gone, because you’re a fool if you think that’s a blow you can take. In the past yes, but it was a different blow, this blow won’t leave a scar, this blow will do far more damage! So if you know that you want a yard and dogs and kids, then why turn your back one more time on what you want? Is it the beginning or the end sir? Simple question, the answer is as hard or easy as you choose to make it!
Why is it this hard I ask, part one to that answer is easy. I simply did it to myself got that one covered! The second part I’d like to believe is because I’m getting close, I weathered the storm, now I have but one question of myself! What fixes it all and gives you everything you want is right on your fingertips! So my question is, why not quit talking about and do something about it this time?Because what you want has given you borrowed time, but it’s barely hanging on by a thread. Not that it wanted things to go down this way, but you forced their hand. You wouldn’t knock it off and now they knocked you right upside the head with a dose of reality you don’t like! Like it or not, within the next week it’s going down and you either take what’s yours and live happily ever after or it all goes boom! I’ve already accepted all the wrong I have done, I had no choice. What’s done is done. But I can choose to write the ending I want this time, I can choose to not let it go to shit and not let everything I’ve ever wanted walk out of my life. Or I can run like always and hope on the next one. Life gets difficult sometimes, it all comes down to I.
Imagine that, you hold the last card in your hand and you can make it anything you want, but you’re running out of time now. You had time, you were given more time and living on borrowed time and still didn’t do what the fuck you were supposed to do so now what? You saw it coming, I don’t see why what happened today is such a surprise. You knew how Tuesday went down that this was bad, really bad and you just tried to ignore it. It’s a easy fix, you have one week to fix it, 7 days and at the end of it, either Heaven or Hell will be waiting. Your move, ball in your court, however you want to say it, right now it’s your life to make or break so what shall you do? It isn’t cute anymore, your act has grown tired as the great guy people know you are has collided with the jackass who had to keep covering his tracks. What you want is in play for one more week, but then the clock really does hit midnight Cinderella! You’ve seen everybody else’s cards, they’re all waiting for you to lay down the last card and see who wins the hand, aren’t you tired of holding losing hands by now?
Better come to play, because I learned a little something about life last night. We showed up in the first qaurter, decided we had gottten out to a big enough lead and coasted until the worst team in the league got within 8! Then we decided to turn it back on, come state tourney time that won’t work and this has become a microcosm of my life! I turn it on when I feel like it and the other half of the time I’m like eh whatever! But whatever had turned into today and as easy as it is to fix now, the more time you let pass the harder I promise you it gets. See there was a victory last night, I hope we payed attention to the loss to. I hope we realized you have to put teams that you should away. Kind of like in life you have to put your past away no matter what you did because in the present you can’t do shit about it. I keep living there, when right now in my hands I have and can still save the future I want. It’s my move, I can run like I always do, but I’m exhausted from running, this is the end or the beginning of the best thing in my life, the CHOICE is mine, the fix is easy! And to any of you idiots out there like me making it harder then it has to be, you’re only fooling yourself in the end! Sometimes you learn more in the loss in the middle of the victory than any other time in your life!
“I tell her yeah, but clearly things will never change!” Change, it’s what in the end will define us. Can that person stop doing something so we can trust them again! Can our world leaders get their heads out of their asses and find that change we need? Change is a funny thing, ignore it and down the line it will catch up with you. I knew what I needed to change and I knew I didn’t do it, so who do I cry to now when I want a do over because it happened again? I’m apauled at everything that I did, but I’m apauled by our unwillingness as a society to change. Flint Michigan USA has worse drinking water than Africa at this point! Whether it’s a justified shooting or not it seems like cops are involved in deadly shootings a lot more lately. Worse, they can’t do their job out of fear some nut job is going to walk up and kill them in their car. Never has there been a time with such chaos! Oil plummeting, China that horse we’ve been riding not looking so good. Stock Market took a shit and it seems like there’s a massive act of violence somewhere every other day! I tell her ya but clearly it will always be the same until the end of time as Tupac says! “One thing people have gotten right for thousands of years, killing each other!”
You feel it in the air, it’s thick and heavy, you feel like you can’t breathe but you have to. Then you ignore it, start doing things to act like your busy and do anything at all costs to avoid addressing it. One problem with that princess, that’s what led you here and got you into this whole mess. And now in the middle of the storm, you see how just an easy of a fix it would be to have it all! Maybe your going to be the one who saves me as Oasis would say, God I hope so because it can’t go on like this any longer. Human shoulders were only made to hold up so much and the weight at this point would be hard for Superman to hold up. But as the song says, Supermam and all his powers have nothing on me. I’m all heart, I’ve been kicked before and I decided to lay there and not get back up, but it’s worth getting up for this time. It’s worth putting the time in on that one thing that can fix it and it’s worth not letting your future and probably the best thing that ever happened to you slip away! It goes back to that saying is the juice worth the squeeze? That’s what you have to decide, because if you don’t I promise you this. Your life will be less of what you want and more of those bad feelings hanging around! How ya living? Not in the open when you tell your kid to treat woman with respect and then when nobody is around call his mom a bitch. Not in the open when you tell her that you love her, but when you’re lying next to her in bed on a dating website! Bad feelings don’t just happen, bad feelings are created, so what are you creating today???