A shot to the head it would seem my pretties, I don’t know how much longer I can fake it until I make it! I have to be done with this Slim Shady shitshow I have created, but any time I get the chance I go right back to what is comfortable! What happens when nothing is comfortable anymore? What happens when the whole fucking thing is a lie? I think it could actually go to hell even more if you can believe that shit, so here I guess would be my choice. Be patient and do the work for one more month Ed Sheeran, but after that I’m going to lose my ducking mind! I’m going to leave it ducking, I need to cuss less the iPhone is right! And ducking, how cute is that? Getting called out by my phone for the one thing I’ve done consistently well my entire life! And just to throw my ADD in there, I hate Mike Trout, but he just made one of the sickest catches I’ve ever saw, watch Sportscenter tonight folks! So getting back to that shot, I have a month to take it, because there are cracks and I can no longer fake it…..
And they sure as hell don’t know you, that’s why they’ll never see it coming, that is if you ever decide to get around to doing something about it. For fuck sake you just hit thirty-eight, that could be half your life! Half your life wasted taking everything down around you, when they all think you’re the one who could change it all. But you can’t quit smoking pot long enough to change more than your clothes! You could change the fucking world tomorrow, but your too busy chasing your tail just trying to make it to the next day! Chasing the things you know that you don’t want because your worried about hurting everyone else but yourself! Its your life, it’s your shit show and its up to you how it goes down from here on out! They never knew Sheeran, Eminem was a candy, so I’m saying There’s a chance a shot in the dark, you just have to do the one thing you’ve never done before, not quit! Not take the easy way out this time, stand and face it, take your lumps and change it all for once and all, it’s up to you, because we all have gone mad for a couple of grams Ed Sheeran! But I got a different ending to the song, I got a different idea and its game on, because I let game over win a long time ago! Hiding from yourself and what you’ve done leaves you but two options, come back bigger and badder because they’ll never see you coming, or never let them see you and waste the rest of your life away.
I burned my hand, I cut my face, Heaven knows how long it’s been, since ive felt so out-of-place, wondering where I fit it. I Believe is how the Garth Brooks song goes. It goes on to say, I’m gonna smile my best smile, and I’m gonna laugh like it’s going out of style, look into her eyes and pray that she don’t see, this learning to love again, is killing me. More like my choices as I sit her today just turning 38 a couple of days ago looking back at the shit show that is my life. I can’t even laugh anymore, it hurts too much looking back on my life now at all the should have been me’s that are now someone else’s! The jokes on me Tyler Farr and there’s no use even walking into the bar, no liquor, no drug, no it will get better takes away the pain of what I’ve done and what I’ve lost! I should have started my own demolition crew, I destroy everything around me and now it has caught up to me and its destroying me. No pity or sympathy here, no more excuses when the man looking back at you in the mirror caused all these consequences. I can say a past that won’t let go of me all I want, but truth be told the only one who can let go is me and now the hardest thing in life must be done. Giving up what I don’t want to and moving on because I know it is the only choice I have left. We make our own demons, but when the day comes and we must face them, will you lay down your guns or go out guns a blazing? No matter how bad it is or where you are in life remember this one thing. If your breathing then you’ve got a shot, so yeah I’m saying it, there’s a chance…..