What matters, who matters and what will you continue to allow to matter! Because all that matters is that you pull it off and then none of the bullshit matters anymore it all fades away! Or it all hangs over your head for the rest of your life and this is all you get. Blah fucking blah man, it feels like I am saying the same damn thing over and over again and I am still unwilling to act on it! Feels like it is all getting old and stale and I better find a different way and not immediately, were talking like tomorrow! I better quit worrying about wants, start taking care of some needs and stop smoking weed, I am tired of being fake! No more game on raw raw bullshit, no more talking about it, tomorrow it is wake up and finally do something about it before it permanently does something about me….